Do we live for the present or the future?

I know this topic seems like it came out of the blue.

But it just seems to me that these days I'm living for the future and not the present, and I wonder if it's always been the case. I'm waiting for NS enlistment, preparing for my SAT and of course looking forward to Hongbao Festival, but not doing anything for the current. Hm I mean doing anything important for the current because I do still play Geo Challenge for leisure (too bad, no life). Problem is, it goes contrary to what many sages have been exhorting, especially some wise old tortoise from a certain movie - what's his name? Master WuGui. Rightttt.

So is it really possible to live for the present?
If you've got no future to live for. - uh.
If what's coming probably isn't nice. - well okay.
If you really think Santa and his naughty-or-nice list exists. - lame.

Isn't life supposed to be about using the present to prepare for the future?

Maybe, it's about living in the present, not for it. I got mixed up haha. Whoops.

Monotony

Life is getting real boring. I'm spending my days doing SAT preparation. I want to talk about science or politics with someone! Got a lot to say and laugh about but I guess I can't do it here. Too much to write, perhaps? Had a nice chat with Wallace just now about a handful of inscrutable (haha SAT word!) scientific theories that included a possible Armageddon in 2012 caused by the switching of Earth's magnetic poles. How cool is that. So cool it's just implausible (another SAT word!). Luckily it's the weekend!

Sailing with the wind

I've just changed my mind; I'm going to aim for an engineering degree. Haha perhaps it may be a bit too much of an about-turn. All the while I've been interested in law, but I think it's been for the wrong reasons. I've always wanted to be as capable as anyone else. Being an all-rounder thus appealed to me. After all, if I could be good at everything, then I would never be found lacking when compared to another person, no matter who he or she is! Naturally, I wanted to be able to write well and speak well, since I'm better at analyzing stuff like in the maths and sciences. From joining the debaters to being far more enthusiastic in GP lessons and concerned with current affairs than the average person, I went all out to make up for my weaknesses - oral communication and written expression.

But a boat that sails against the wind doesn't go far... I think true success for anyone should involve more focus on playing to his or her inherent strengths, instead of wasting time and effort making up for weaknesses.

Having said that, please advise!

And I wait for a few more days.

Most of my friends are enlisting tomorrow. I'll be going in a little later on the 28th. Well, that gives time to study for SAT and take the test itself, but it's not exactly very exciting either. At least it's better than waiting till April though.

Anyway, I forgot to tap my EZ-Link card yesterday on the way to Li Ting's house. My heart nearly sank. That cost me 2 bucks instead of 70 cents, thanks. I'm so used to getting off the bus without tapping. And listening to that familiar beep-beep instead of just a strange beep.

Life's quite different!

The first few of many new revelations I'll have this year:

No more school. Which means no more student concession. Ouch. I feel the fire in my pants - that which is burning a hole in my pocket, nothing else okay thanks.

No more school also means imminent brain degeneration. I think, I mean I feel that it's already begun. HELP! How am I going to do my SAT?! Especially the essay writing part. And all that grammar and vocabulary is swirling randomly in my head; I've lost most of my ability to conceptualise, even at a fundamental level. My gosh. The SAT guidebook suggests regular writing practice. Guess I'll do it here.

No more school means fun - while it lasts.

2009

Yesterday's countdown marks the end of a tumultuous 2008 and the start of 2009. I can't really say for sure how it's going to turn out until I actually go through it.

Anyway I missed the countdown together with the rest of my family and Singapore. I did it with the fairies and gnomes. I was far too tired haha. But it's okay, I don't think missing a countdown amounts to a bad start to the year.

Reminiscing:

Milestone for 2008 - A LEVEL

Looking ahead:

Milestone for 2009 - NS

I'm going to make it a fruitful year regardless of certain inevitable circumstances haha.